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 Cut to the Chase, Kyler Landon
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 Posted: Feb 10 2018, 04:08 PM
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Frustrated. No, frustrated wasn't strong enough a word for how Lenny felt. It had gone beyond that. He didn't even know how things had gotten so bad. Worst of all, he didn't know how to solve his problem.

Ky just wouldn't talk about sex.

While Lenny hadn't experimented too much with kinkiesr aspects of sex, never having a steady partner he trusted enough to do so, he'd always been open with what he liked, what he disliked. Apps made it even easier. People put in their profiles what they might be into and you didn't even need a conversation to know who you might sent to avoid, or share interests with.

But Kyler wasn't talking, and he wasn't taking, either. Lenny couldn't wrap his hand around it. Kyler could be marking up his neck with hickeys ones minute and the next he'd just... Lay back and let Lenny take over. He'd shown no interest in things Lenny considered usual parts of a healthy sex life and it had not only started to frustrate him, but worry him too. Did Ky not want to do things with him? Was Lenny not good enough at what they were doing? Didn't he find Lenny attractive?

They were horrible thoughts, made worse by Ky shutting him down every time he tried to talk about it. He'd thought being in a relationship might mean what he'd always been doing but only with one person, but while they were plenty sexually active, there were certain things Lenny wanted that just didn't happen. Kyler hadn't shown any interest in fucking Lenny. He'd even worn that stupid red thong they'd 'stolen' from Trudy's and that hadn't worked!

Lenny turned over in bed. He was stewing in his thoughts, lower lip jutting out, frown in place. He'd been in bed all morning, which wasn't unusual. What was unusual what that he'd woken up, gone to the bathroom, and then gone straight back to bed, not even acknowledging Ky. No joining Ky on the couch for half-asleep snuggles while his boyfriend worked. He didn't even stop for any coffee. He'd crawled back into bed, wrapped the covers around himself all the way up to his neck, facing away from the door. It seemed there was nothing left but to feel sorry for himself and stew in his irritation - as Kyler obviously didn't care enough about him to talk about things - and Lenny had no idea where to go from there.
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Kyler Landon
 Posted: Feb 10 2018, 08:53 PM
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Life was in one of those weird phases where everything felt off and it had been that way for a few days at least and a week, maybe two at most. He would have liked to have blamed the odd sensation on what had happened to his hair and the trauma that had followed but it felt like it even went as far back as the issues that had arisen in New York. The blonde still had not spoken to his parents since then but it wasn't so bad because at least he had Lenny. His boyfriend had been amazingly supportive through the gum incident, they had enjoyed their time at the spa, and Ky was even warming up to the look and feel of his significantly shorter hair. The stylist had been able to save some of the longer pieces in front but the style was to have it shorter in the back and it almost resembled Lenny's now.

Admittedly, it was easier to fix and though he never complained about it before it was something nice about the shorter length. His morning routine was cut nearly in half because of that so he had been able to get to work a bit earlier in the day, which in turn meant finishing earlier. It wasn't quite quitting time when he heard the bedroom door open and his boyfriend shuffle across to the bathroom so he was fully expecting the familiar warmth of Lenny snuggling up to him on the couch in the few following minutes. When he heard the bedroom door close again he figured something was wrong and heaved a sigh.

If he didn't figure out what was going on now then Lenny would be even more upset later so he'd have to step away from the work he was making killer progress on to go do damage control for only God knew what. Closing his laptop with annoyance, he got to his feet and walked back to the room. Closing the door behind him, he perched on the edge of the bed and stared at the bundle of blankets that concealed his boyfriend. "Baby, what's wrong?" It was best to just rip the band-aid off and dive into the problem.


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Lenny Neroni
 Posted: Feb 11 2018, 01:36 AM
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Lenny liked Ky's shorter hair. He'd liked it longer too, liked both, but there were a few positives about Ky's new haircut. It was still silky and soft, with the added bonus that it didn't take Ky quite so long to get ready if they were going out. Kyler seemed to like it too, as suggested by the lack of further tears on the subject after their amazing spa weekend.

He was happy his boyfriend was happy. A lot of the time, Lenny valued his self worth through how how happy he could make Ky, or please him. Where sex was concerned, though, it was no longer enough just to think of Ky. Lenny wanted to be thought of. There were things he wanted to do. Plus, without talking about it, he didn't know what else Kyler might like that Lenny could do, or worse, what he didn't like that Lenny could avoid.

There were clicks as the door opened and closed, footsteps just audible in the quiet room, and then Lenny felt the mistress dip down slightly. He still didn't move. He let out an irritated huff, his mouth jutting out further in a pout, his arms more squarely folded across his chest under the swathe of blankets, but he didn't move.

He glared when Kyler asked what was wrong, even if Kyler might not be able to see the glare.

"You never wanna talk about stuff!" he accused, followed up by another dramatic huff of air.
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Kyler Landon
 Posted: Feb 11 2018, 02:08 AM
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Honestly, he did like his hair cut quite a bit and, though he missed his longer hair, he was happy with how it was and knew that he would be especially happy for it in the warmer months and until then hats would do. It was a change but it wasn't bad, not as bad as Lenny being upset anyway and the worst thing about that was he really had no clue why Lenny was mad.

Kyler's frame of reference went from him dutifully working and believing that there wasn't an issue with his relationship, to hearing Lenny, uncharacteristically, going back to bed. He was forced to assume that Lenny had overreacted to a dream and was taking it out on him because he really couldn't think or anything he had done wrong that day, or even in the recent days. Pfft, not like he would have admitted to being wrong even if he could think of something he had done. Kyler didn't make mistakes often and he claimed them even less frequently.

Still, this was something that needed to be dealt with before Lenny had reached a point of being inconsolable so, that's what he was doing. Into the room he went, onto the bed, and was now waiting on his boyfriend to answer his question. "You never wanna talk about stuff!" The accusation came without the other budging a muscle and the blonde could help but roll his eyes because Lenny couldn't see him anyway.

"We talk all the time… We’re talking now." He pointed out, still staring at the mound of blankets covering his boyfriend. As he spoke he shifted closer, crawling up the bed and leaning over his lover. Their bodies made a sort of 'T' shape with Ky on his hands and knees over his boyfriend's head, his own dropped forward to look him in the face. "We can talk about how much I love you." There was a smile even if the other was glowering.

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Lenny Neroni
 Posted: Feb 11 2018, 02:25 AM
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Kyler and Lenny talked plenty, yes, but so far, not about certain subjects Lenny wanted to talk about. He pouted further at Ky's first words, pulling the blankets tighter around him. He felt the bed shift, wondering what Kyler was doing, until Kyler's face appeared above him. Even Lenny couldn't maintain a sulk with Kyler's smile in his face and reminders of how much he loved Lenny.

His glare faded, but it was replaced with sadness as Lenny thought, his eyes averting. If Kyler loved him truly, he'd want to talk about things. He sighed, less dramatic and more upset, his mouth twisting as he tried to find the words. His gaze lifted to meet his boyfriends, his eyes large and sad.

"But you won't talk about sex." he pointed out in a mumble, letting his gaze drop before he continued, "You don't care what I want, that I wanna talk about it and... You don't even just do stuff instead of talking about it, you just... You'll start stuff but... then you stop so I have to take over and I don't mind that sometimes, but.... What about what I want? You never let me talk about it." he raised his gaze to look at Ky again, sad and accusing.
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Kyler Landon
 Posted: Feb 11 2018, 02:57 AM
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Again with the things that Ky would never admit, but the blonde was a manipulator through and through. They talked but it was almost always about things that he wanted to talk about and if it wasn't then it was at least something of interest to him because that was how he wanted it. Sometimes his manipulations could be malicious but they weren't with Lenny because Kyler truly did love the other, this was just his nature. No really, if there were any doubts all anyone had to do was look at his past with Tony. The mime was always persuaded into doing whatever Kyler wanted because it was what Ky wanted and people simply didn't tell him 'no'.

He was very much spoiled with attention and always had been but he learned from a young age how to get what he wanted from people without making it obvious that's what he was doing. Lenny wasn't just anyone though, this was his boyfriend and o, course he didn't want to hurt him, he wanted him to know how much he loved him and was trying to wipe that glare away in exchange for a smile. It half worked.

The anger ebbed from his lover's expression only to be replaced by a saddened frown as the other dove head first into the problem. "But you won't talk about sex." Crap. He had been avoiding this conversation for days but had just willingly opened the messy can of worms that apparently had Lenny believing that he didn't care because he was avoiding it and because he made Lenny finish anything that he did start… sexually. Frowning, he leaned back so that he was sitting on his legs and glaring at the wall. Why him?

"That doesn't mean I don't care. There's loads of things that we don't talk about, why should this be any different?" The perkiness he'd had tried to rub off on Lenny was gone now and pissy anger had settled in its place. Angry at Lenny for being so dramatic about this and angry at himself for walking into it. "I thought doing… that was what you wanted and now you're adding all these extra things." He pouted, he wasn't going to be the only 'bad guy' in this conversation.

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Lenny Neroni
 Posted: Feb 11 2018, 03:13 AM
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Lenny sighed, both irritated and upset, not too far away from losing his temper if Ky kept failing to get the points he was making. He didn't know if Kyler truly didn't understand or if he was trying to cut the conversation off, again, on purpose, but it didn't matter if the result was Kyler still refusing to talk. He didn't seem to think it was any different from mundane topics.

"It matters to me!" Lenny said, his voice growing louder and his glare back in place, full force. "What? What's 'that'? And extra things? You don't even know any fucking extra stuff that I think is normal stuff, because you won't talk about it!" he stopped, breaths shaky. The way Kyler talked about something they already did was upsetting. It wasn't enthusiastic, it didn't sound like like Kyler even particularly enjoyed it, the way he was speaking. Was that what sex felt like to Kyler, an obligation? It chipped at Lenny's self-confidence, feeding right into the feelings behind his bad mood. "I don't get it! Am I not good enough? It's like you're holding back or something and you won't even say why and it's not fair! You say you love me, but you don't even care what I want! " he finished with, his glare watery, and promptly pulled at the blankets to try and cover his face to hide beneath them, both in an effort to block Kyler out and hide the tears that the pricking feeling in his eyes signalled the threat of.
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Kyler Landon
 Posted: Feb 11 2018, 10:09 PM
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Kyler wasn't trying to make his boyfriend upset, well he kind of was to avoid having to discuss anything sexual but he definitely wasn't trying to make the other upset by avoiding it. That was just something that he never talked about before and felt sort of awkward doing so now. He didn't see the problem. Lenny was privy to, nearly, everything that Tony was by this point and he never talked sex with Tony either and that was fine. Okay, so he didn't do that with the mime but still, it counted, right? It was just sex, there was no reason to make a big deal about it.

"It matters to me!" Fine, maybe it wasn't 'just' sex to Lenny but Ky hadn't known that. Pfft, not that it would have made him more willing to talk about the topic but it would have made a difference. "What? What's 'that'? And extra things? You don't know any extra stuff that I think is normal stuff, because you won't talk about it!" Well excuse him! The blonde folded his arms over his chest and huffed a breath before he started in on his boyfriend. "Gee, I wonder if it has anything to do with the fact that you're belittling me about it!" He had quickly matched his boyfriend's hostile tone.

"I don't get it! Am I not good enough? It's like you're holding back or something and you won't even say why and it's not fair! You say you love me, but you don't even care what I want!" He was feeling pretty attacked at this point and still didn't understand the importance of having the intimacy conversation. "You said that! I never said you weren't enough or that I don't care! You're just being dramatic!" The words were snapped back as his honeyed eyes bore holes into the wall. "Why do you want to talk about it anyway?! I bet you didn't have this conversation with everyone you screwed!" Somehow, in his mind, a fight was better than being subjected to this. Lenny had all but insulted his abilities and that left Kyler feeling even less encouraged about the conversation.

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Lenny Neroni
 Posted: Feb 12 2018, 12:52 AM
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A big part of the problem was that Lenny didn't know how experienced Kyler was or wasn't, or whether he'd ever spoken about things before. Kyler simply wasn't communicating and Lenny had nothing to go on. It left him feeling frustrated and really, also a bit unwanted. To Lenny it was especially important after Kyler making it clear on other matters that it was important to share things. So, why wouldnt he share on a matter that Lenny considered incredibly important to their relationship?

"I'm not be- im not doing that! I'm not saying you're bad, how'm I meant to know if you're bad when we haven't done it and you won't talk about it?" it almost felt like Kyler was purposefully irritating him, how he repeatedly managed to misinterpret what Lenny was saying, but Lenny didn't think that could be true.

Either way, the longer it went on, the more upset he was getting, rather than angry. To him, Kyler's words were just proving how he felt. Worse was being accused of being dramatic when he claimed to feel uncared for and that he wasn't good enough.

"That's how you make me feel!" he said, managing to get the one sentence out. His lip was quivering and at this point he was sniffing to try and get rid of the sensation that he was going to cry, but it wasn't working. Kyler didn't care. He didn't even care that Lenny thought he didn't care.

He was frustrated, feeling left out and uncared for, his feelings just beaten down by Kyler's anger. He didn't even know why Kyler was angry, but the fact he was was one than enough to upset Lenny.

"I did," he managed to say between shaky breaths, losing the battle against the flow of tears. He had, with most people, especially those he'd hooked up with more than once, "and I didn't even love any of them." he finished quietly and sadly and wrapped his arms further around himself, upset and confused and frustrated, sobbing as silently as he could against the tangle of blankets, his sniffing, the shaking of his form and the strain to his voice the larger indication he was even crying at all.
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Kyler Landon
 Posted: Feb 13 2018, 12:54 AM
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Honestly, Kyler didn't know how experienced he was or wasn't either. He had sex a grand total of one time that wasn't with Lenny and it was years ago and it was, what he assumed to be, basic. The blonde didn't know much, if anything, about the various avenues of sex or fetishes and kinks or even that his controlling nature could take over there too. In the grand scheme of things, there was a lot that he didn't know and never cared to know because he hadn't ever talked about this with anyone before.

Talking about it made him uncomfortable because this was one of the areas where he had no idea how to articulate the things that he wanted to say. He certainly couldn't tell Lenny what he liked because he had no idea beyond the basic things that they had tried together and it was easier just to say that he enjoyed everything Lenny did. It made no sense why that wasn't good enough for his boyfriend. Apparently, it wasn't though and Lenny wasn't warming the blonde up to the idea very well as he already felt like Lenny was demeaning his skills.

"I'm not be- I'm not doing that! I'm not saying you're bad, how'm I supposed to know if you're bad when we haven't done it and you won't talk about it." He let the comment slide because he had no answer for it and could only assume that suggesting they not talk about wouldn't be sufficient. Groaning instead, he listened as Lenny carried on. "It's how you make me feel." Whatever. It wasn't like he had done this with everyone, right? "I did, and I didn't even love any of them."

Ky issued another groan and flopped himself over Lenny, burying his face into the blanket heap that was his boyfriend. "Jeeze! I'm sorry okay!" His angry was clearer than his words as they came out dilute by the blanket. Rolling his head to the side, he drew a sharp breath. "I just don't… I don't know this stuff… and… and… talking about it… I dunno… it makes me feel weird." He resigned fighting with the other, clearly, this conversation was happening one way or another.

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Kyler was angry, but Lenny couldn't understand it, he couldn't understand what it was that was making him angry. It wasn't very easy to understand when Kyler wouldn't talk, but to Lenny it also felt like he was the one being wronged. He was the one being deprived, not Kyler!

The apology was muffled through the blanket, the anger in his boyfriend's tone more audible, yet the firm weight of Kyler against him felt like apology of sorts too, or at least signalled the end of the arguing rift between them. With it Lenny managed to pull himself out of the pitiful state he'd gotten into. He wiped his eyes, sniffed, and peeked his head out of the blanket to come face to face with Kyler, noses almost touching.

He chewed at his lip, gazing into his boyfriend's honey eyes, wishing he could see understanding in them. His gaze dropped down as he thought, unsure.

"Its.... it's not me? " he asked, not readily believing otherwise after having felt sure it was since he'd tried to broach the subject with Kyler and been repeatedly stonewalled. He looked to Ky and then away again when he started talking, " I tried other stuff... hinting and... hoping you might just... do stuff I like anyway, but... " he sighed, "I mean, if you don't wanna fuck me, I don't wanna make you, I wouldn't make you do something if you didn't like it. But.. you haven't said you don't like that... you haven't said anything. " he trailed off, a confused frown on his face as he tried to place why Kyler was so against talking about anything sexual. " Didn't you talk about stuff with other people you were with? " he blinked, not yet making the connection that Kyler hadn't had many opportunities to. He thought Kyler was incredibly attractive, so to Lenny, it didn't seem plausible that he hadn't had his pick of sexual partners before they'd met.

"I mean... " he turned fully, facing Kyler and leaning against him through the blankets, "Why's it make you feel weird? Everything we do when we fuck... is fucking amazing, you don't need to feel weird about sex stuff." Lenny being incredibly vocal during sex was likely enough to encourage Kyler in the right direction with what they'd done so far, despite his inexperience. Lenny wasn't lying when he said it was good. "And... I mean... I don't wanna do something you don't like or shit. I mean... is what we do good for you? You like it when I fuck you? " he paused, worried from Kylers attitude earlier that he'd been judging his boyfriend's reactions wrong. "I thought you liked it, I thought you'd stop me if you didn't...." his gaze dropped again, his teeth returning to worry at his lip.
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Kyler Landon
 Posted: Mar 6 2018, 06:39 PM
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It should have been easier. Kyler never had issues in saying exactly what it was that he wanted from anything else but for some reason when it came to matters of pleasure he was lost for words. There would always be a first time for everything but this was something that he would have been more than happy to just ignore and it really didn't have anything to do with Lenny either. He wanted to make his boyfriend happy but talking about the specific things that did or did not feel good in bed wasn't what he had in mind to achieve that goal.

The allure of such a conversation was entirely lost on the blonde. That may have partly been due to the fact that he hadn't ever actually had a discussion that was even remotely similar to it but it all boiled down to the fact that he just felt awkward discussing such things. He couldn't explain it and he didn't particularly care, he wanted to avoid it but Lenny was making that difficult.

Having flopped overtop of the other in mock surrender, he found himself almost nose to nose with the other once Lenny decided he could peek out of the blankets. He shifted his body a bit closer to the blankets in search of snuggles. "It's not you." That was the truth. Not that Ky was ready to openly admit that he was the problem either but he could, at the very least, shift the blame from his blanket-wrapped boyfriend.

He listened quietly while Lenny expressed his thoughts. "Didn't you talk about stuff with other people you were with?" The question brought a frown to his features and he shifted to bury his face into the blankets around Lenny without answering. How was he supposed to tell his boyfriend, who had many partners, that he had only been with one other person and that was one time and too long ago to remember properly? It wasn't something that he was necessarily looking forward to and he was, sort of, grateful when Lenny pressed on.

Shifting again, he met the other's gaze and held it for as long as his boyfriend would allow but didn't speak for several minutes and when he finally did it was prefaced by a hesitant sigh. "It's not you." He had said that already. "I just… I've never really talked about this stuff before. I never had anyone to talk about it with." This was weird and he was fairly positive that he was even blushing a little, which didn't help. "I… I don't like to talk about it because… well, because I've only been with one person beside you." He almost didn't want to see the reaction that would elicit. "It wasn't even a recent thing… I was, like, sixteen when I slept with… the other guy." He didn't see the need to share Ren's name.

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Lenny didn't quite worship the ground Kyler walked on but he wasn't far off, so naturally when problems had started to arise in their relationship laying the blame on Kyler wasn't something that crossed his mind. On the surface, yes, he could blame his boyfriend for refusing to talk, but underneath it all was Lenny's concern that he was the problem. He felt like a fish out of water in a relationship at times. While he didn't know about Kyler's dating history to compare it to his own, he'd just assumed Kyler must know more because Kyler was... Kyler.

When his boyfriend tried to assure Lenny he wasn't the problem, the self doubts didn't let the reassurance be an easy out. Instead Lenny frowned, doubtful, unsure what else could be causing the issues and frustration he'd been facing. He looked back at Kyler, his eyes wide, worried, holding the other's gaze. The sigh confused Lenny and he blinked rapidly, frowning, head tilting to one side as he listened.

Realisation was always a slow process with Lenny. It was almost comically visible at times and this instance was no difference. His eyes widened, he blinked, went to say something, doubted himself, let his mouth hang open as he tried to piece together what Kyler was saying with his own view of who Kyler was. It ended with him staring at Kyler open mouthed, looking like a gormless idiot.

To Lenny, it wasn't feasible that someone he found so attractive could only have had one previous sexual experience. It had floored him. He stared at Kyler, shocked, but also in awe. His boyfriends words were echoing in his head. One other guy. Guy. Not plural. And it had happened a decade ago. It didn't feel possible. He couldn't understand how, let alone begin to tackle to subject of why.

"But...." he managed to say, still struggling to move on from the initial shock, "But... You're so hot!"

The surprise in his gaze softened but didn't disappear.

"I... I just... I thought..." he glanced away, mind still working overtime, before glancing to meet Kyler's gaze again, "You just... You're so clever and you know so much about stuff and... Fuck, you could've had loads of guys..." he shook his head, unable to understand how Kyler hadn't, before another realisation hit him. He glanced to Kyler again, but his gaze held concern this time rather than awe. "Did I..." he looked down, eyes wide and worried, guilt written over his features, "Did I go too fast - in New York? When I fucked you?" his gaze rose to Kyler, the fear that he had already visible in it as he thought ahead. He'd never in a million years thought that he was only Kyler's second partner, let alone experience, the thought that he'd rushed his boyfriend never before entering his mind but now that it had, it was a chilling prospect. Lenny's own pleasure was suddenly the furthest thing from his mind when he was confronted with the possibility of him having hurt his boyfriend instead.
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 Posted: May 28 2018, 04:59 PM
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There were some things that Kyler avoided talking about like they were the plague or something. Among those topics were his past, his family, and his sex life (or lack thereof). He never had any issue opening up to Tony about most things but even his singular incidence with Brendyn all those years ago had been purposefully glossed over and that was just the end of it. There was never any need or desire to bring it up again or go into explicit detail. It wasn't like Tony wanted to know that stuff since he had never really liked Ren to begin with and… really, how much of that stuff was Ky supposed to tell the mime?

Even after the first time that Kyler and Lenny had done anything, when Tony had wound up carrying the blonde to bed because Lenny had forgotten him on the couch, they hadn't actually talked about what happened. It was, well, weird. Sex was complicated enough for the blonde without having to elaborate why he was so hesitant toward it and here he was trying to help his boyfriend understand that it wasn't his fault that Ky didn't like expressing things but due to the fact that he had one experience with one person prior to Lenny.

"But…. But… You're so hot!" The blonde groaned audibly at that. He knew it was true but that didn't, in his mind, have anything to do with why he hadn't had sex. "I... I just... I thought… You just... You're so clever and you know so much about stuff and... Fuck, you could've had loads of guys…" Alright, he could appreciate the compliments but they were not making this conversation much easier to have and he still could only barely muster a sound around the blankets that he had hidden his face against. He so did not want to talk about this. It was too private and personal to share with even his best friend so why did anyone else need to know?

"Did I… Did I go too fast - in New York? When I fucked you?" His brows furrowed together at the question. "What?" It was only barely better than trying to explain why he had basically been abstinent for ten years. "No… it's not like that." He rolled onto his back and stared up at the ceiling with his honey eyes. "That was… it was…" God, he was definitely feeling a blush spread across his cheeks now. "I liked that." His voice was soft, his eyes still transfixed on the surface above him. He was quiet for another stretch of minutes before he glanced to where Lenny lay at his side. "…we can… do that again… now… if you wanted." Yeah, he was absolutely baiting Lenny with sex in the hopes of avoiding having to talk anymore about it.

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The audible groan after Lenny's outburst only served to surprise him more. He hadn't even meant the gush of compliments to come out in such a way, hadn't even thought of them as compliments, but as what must have been the truth. His way of thinking hadn't offered up any other alternatives. He couldn't begin to fathom what other reasons Kyler had for not being more sexually experienced.

It left him frowning at Ky in confusion, blinking repeatedly, wondering why he couldn't understand what was going on.

"What?" He asked, softly, almost timidly, "I mean, then... what was it?" His face was the picture of confusion, but also earnestly trying to understand.

Perhaps an obvious sign of how emotional Lenny was feeling was his reaction to the offered sex. He smiled, a small, unsure smile, when Ky said he enjoyed it, and shifted to be a little closer to his boyfriend.

"Really?" He asked, voice quiet before he gave a small smile, "I liked it too..." he trailed off when Ky offered up a repeat, unsure of what to say. He didn't want to, not then, was the easy answer, but he didn't want Ky feeling like he was rejecting him. He was feeling strung out, mixed up, and actually pursuing sex in that moment wasn't on his mind. It actually felt wrong when only seconds ago he'd been mortified that he'd forced himself on Kyler too soon.

"Maybe we could do that later?" He said, still very quietly, avoiding looking at Kyler in fear of catching a sign of disappointment from his boyfriend. He reached out for Kyler's hand, shy of taking it at first, letting his fingers graze over his boyfriend's skin. He'd always talked about sex, but it had always seemed easy, always just happened. It was different with Ky's reluctance, making Lenny feel uncomfortable about talking about it too, none of it helped by his previous attempts to talk to his boyfriend being shut down. He felt a pressure to accept it though, to encourage Ky, rather than turn ideas down, leaving him feeling uncomfortable because he didn't want to do it right then.

"I like... what I did to you, I like that... I like being fucked too..." He murmured, gently, feeling a blush rise to his cheeks at the oddity of it all. He wasn't used to sex feeling such a taboo topic. He swallowed, feeling beyond awkward, almost flustered. "I... I know you don't like talking about it, but... I want to do things with you... I wanna... I wanna share everything with you like that... I wanna know what you like.. and you to know what I like... and if we never talk... we'll just never do any of it... and I wanna be happy with you." He tried an attempt at an encouraging smile, searching out Kyler's eyes, trying to ignore feeling so lost when he'd talked about sex so many times before with other people.
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